| — | ~Sydney Smith, Lady Holland’s Memoir |
What is your middle name?
Erin
What color is your mailbox?
I don’t have a mailbox
Have you ever hit a deer?
Why yes, I punched one in the face just this morning
Do you have to drive over a bridge to get home?
depends on where I’m driving from.
What color is your room?
Purple
Do you have a small driveway?
compared to what?
Do you know anyone with the same ringtone as you?
not that I’m aware of… When Doves Cry by Prince is not a normal ringtone
What do you do first in the morning?
umm… Breathe, maybe? wake up?
what brand is your printer?
HP and a Canon
Do you enjoy fighting with people?
not really
Is your hair naturally straight or curly?
straight as a pin
Who was your kindergarten teacher?
Mrs. Hendin
Are you taller than your mom?
yessur
What curse word do you say the most when your pissed?
fuck
Are you God?
of course
Do you like someone?
Well, yes. I like quite a few people. They are enjoyable to be around. Why wouldn’t I?
Do you enjoy writing in colored pens?
Purple and black. Not much else.
Does anything hurt on your body right now?
all the time
Do you often cry during a movie?
not as much as I used to. I well up a lot though.
Last phone call you received?
Lizzi
Last text message?
Mom
Do you hate your life?
at certain points. but not recently.
Do you get mad easily?
depends
What is your biggest pet peeve?
I have a lot of pet peeves. Can’t think of ANY of them currently, but I have to many to have one piss me off more than any other.
Are you cold?
no
Do any of your friends have kids?
yep
Do you know anyone that is pregnant right now?
Not that I’m aware of.
Who should pay on the first date?
doesn’t matter
How many years older than you are you willing to date?
I dont care
Do you have any friends?
no, I’m a pathetic loser that absolutely everyone hates and no one ever wants to be around me. pfft.
Do you have any mean friends?
yes. not necessarily mean to me. but yes, they’re mean. and it’s highly amusing to me.
What is the ugliest color to wear in your opinion?
depends on the person. I personally hate mustard. and orange. Dear god, I hate orange. It is excessivly offensive to me.
Have you ever liked someone who all your friends hate?
haha *cough*mike*cough*
Have you ever felt like driving off a cliff, seriously?
yep
Have you ever contemplated suicide?
yes indeedy
Who was the last person to hug you?
either Momma or Katie… or maybe Barb. last person I hugged was definitely Momma though.
What brand are the pant/jeans you’re wearing right now?
…skirt?
How tall are you?
5’9ish
What is the closest green object?
my skirt… and parts of my eyes. and my cross necklace
If you were born the opposite sex, what would your parents name you?
Tristan Aaron… ya know, compared to Trista Erin. They were exceedingly creative with that….
Do you want to have kids?
I am currently undecided. Ask again in 10 years.
What is the brightest color you’re wearing?
this dark lime green on my skirt.
Who is the friend you have that you would never have expected to have?
I never expected to be friends with anyone. I’m just wonderfully blessed to have the friends I do. And I love all of them.
Who do you hate the most right now?
I don’t HATE anyone. I severely dislike some people, at times. But I don’t HATE anyone.
What kind of car do you want?
Hybrid.
What is your favorite video game?
I am quite partial to the final fantasy series.
Do you like your dad?
he’s not bad… he’s not so good either, but he’s not bad…
Do you have any TV shows on DVD?
Gilmore Girls seasons 1-3
Are you wearing make-up?
not anymore..
Do you have a tattoo?
no
Have you ever broken a pinata?
yes
What time is it right now?
448p.
Do you know how to draw?
I guess. I know how to, but knowing how doesn’t necessarily mean it’s any good. I like some stuff better than others.
Who loves orange soda?
me. and KEL!
Who did you last IM?
Daka. I may IM this to Lizzi though
Where were you in the last 24 hours?
home, 7-eleven, Katie and Jerry’s wedding and reception, and Target.
Who was the last person that called you?
Lizzi. You already asked that….
Is there anything you regret?
nope
Do you know where your family name originated from?
England, I think. Mom’s is definitely from Germany though. Kolar, from Kolarz, where there are still some in the southeast portion of Germany.
Is there an animal that creeps you out?
not that I can think of right now, but probably.
What is your favorite color ON A CAR?
Silver
Do you use digital or film cameras?
digital
Do you own an iPod?
yes. And I love Betty Sue very much.
Have you ever been on a charter bus?
yep. several times. twice for Florida, 3 times for stratford, once for NYC, once for Chicago. and I think maybe once for somewhere in Ohio, too…
Do you like going to water parks?
not particularly
1. The phone rings, who do you want it to be?
Liz, Emily, Katie or Lea. I really don’t talk to anyone else anymore…
2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
If I’m not feeling overly lazy.
3. If you had to kiss the last person you kissed again, would you?
Of course I would. Momma kisses are the best.
4. Do you take compliments well?
Sometimes…
5. Do you play Sudoku?
Yes, indeed I do.
6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness would you survive?
I should hope so, but truly, i hope I don’t have to test the matter and find out for certain.
7. If your house were on fire, what would be the first thing you would save?
Gypsy, family (though I’d hope they’d be able to make it out themselves… I’d be terribly worried if they couldn’t) and Delilah if I had the time.
8. Who was the last person you slept in the bed with?
hmm… my mum. about 3 weeks ago. at my aunt’s cabin.
9. Who do you text the most?
i don’t text.. though I used to text liz a lot.
10. Favorite children’s book?
…. I can’t remember the title but it was about the lupine lady and her name was alice rumfius and she wanted to see many places and do many things and live by the sea, but to do that (her grandfather told her) she had to make the world a better place. and she affected me.
11. Eye color?
Blue and green
12. How tall are you?
just under 5’9” i was recently informed. I don’t trust my doctor though. Last time they said I was 5’7 and three days prior, I was 5’10. by the same nurse.
13. If you could do it over again, start from scratch, would you?
what exactly is “it”?
14. Any secret admirers?
If I knew about them, it wouldn’t be that much of a secret, would it?
15. When was the last time you were at Olive Garden?
a couple months ago. I actually don’t really remember… but it was because they had a dish that caught my eye so we went. it was rather good, but apparently not good enouth to have a clue what it was…
16. Favorite ex..?
I prefer to not choose a favorite. I dislike them both equally.
17. Where was the furthest place you traveled?
Florida
18. Do you like mustard?
I don’t mind honey mustard… everything else makes me make this weird face that i prefer to not make.
19. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
Sleep
21. Do you miss anyone?
Yes
22. Can you do splits?
almost
23. What movie do you want to see right now?
Hair and Hairspray
24. What did you do for New Year’s Eve?
I went grocery shopping, made brie, played board games and drank several bottles of sarkling fruit juice. I believe that that could be an omen pointing to the rest of my life…
25. Do you think The Grudge was crappy?
it had no point and didn’t frighten me or my 9-year-old cousin. when that’s the case for a “horror film”, yes is the only answer I can give.
26. Do you own a camera phone?
yes but it’s useless.
27. Was your mom a cheerleader?
No… but my aunt was. but they weren’t normal cheerleaders… they were like anti cheerleaders.
28. What’s the last letter of your middle name?
N
29. Are you hispanic?
No.
31. Do you like care bears?
it has been a long time since i have encountered the carebears to have a truly concise opinion of them. I know i once liked them when I was much shorter.
32. What do you buy at the Movies?
soda.
33. Do you know how to play poker?
sort of
34. Do you wear your seatbelt?
most of the time, yes
35. What do you wear to sleep?
usually, what I wore that day. sometimes sleeppants and t-shirt.
36. Anything big ever happen in your city?
maybe. i don’t pay close enough attention to know.
37. Is your hair straight or curly?
straight
38. Is your tongue pierced?
nope
39. Do you like Liver and Onions?
I don’t understand why anyone would willingly eat the body’s purification system and things that make you smell funny once you’ve consumed them.
40. Do you like funny or serious people better?
I prefer people who understand that there are times to be funny and times to be serious and they should only coincide if it is warranted.
41. Ever been to L.A.?
Nope.
42. Who is on your mind right now?
can someone be on your mind without being a truly corporeal object? I mean, no one’s found the location of the mind to know what it looks like… so could someone actually be on it?
43. Any plans 4 tonight?
tonight’s thinking about being over pretty soon.
44. Whats your fav. song at the moment?
i’m going on a vanessa carlton kick currently
45. Do you hate chocolate?
No.
46. What do you and your parents fight about the most?
my mother and i have disagreements… and then they end. and then everything’s peechy-keen
47. Are you a gullible person?
only when i’m tired
48. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy?
not. at. all. they tend to make me unhappy, truly.
49. If you could have any job what would it be?
English or theatre teacher. or… i dunno… writer. books and plays and musicals and poetry… and i’d illustrate everything. just because I could.
50. Are you easy to get along with?
i’d like to think so
51. What is your favorite time of day?
when i’m conscious. i like being aware of what’s going on
52. Are you generally a happy person?
generally… i think most people are. i’d like to think happy, or at least content, is most people’s default emotion.
I’ve been with Lea a lot lately. since july 12th… she’s been over at last 4 times. she’s spent the night twice. We went to Universal the other day and saw Bridge to Terabithia. it was good. we both cried. a lot.
i also made a wonderful purchase before the movie. I got an old “vintage” Raggedy Anne. It’s sad, though. She has no Heart. Every Raggedy Anne and Andy has a Heart.
Rita Metermaid and Mr. Mustard have both died. Mom has decided that she’s done with buying 8 dollar fish, especially 3 at a time. At least Jude is still alive. He probably won’t be much longer, judging by the other two, but I like that he lived the longest.
I haven’t finished all six Harry Potter books. I’m a a little disappointed since the 7th book is coming out tomorrow night, and there’s no way that I’m gonna finish 4, 5, and 6 by then. I may just work on 4, and skim 6 to have an idea. Maybe read chapter titles to get a bit of an inkling. oh well…
I still haven’t seen Order of the Phoenix. I may this weekend. I have been advised to not read the book first because I’ll be disappointed in the movie if I do. I like not being disappointed… so I’ll probably wait on it.
I may put off Deathly Hallows until I get through the rest of them. It was my original plan, but the difference was that all the other books were supposed to be read before deathly hallows came out…
I seriously gashed my pinky toe and big toe the other day. 1/2 an inch long cuts on each. Hurts like a bitch.
New computer… can’t do much with it til i get microsoft office and internet though. oh well.
I really want to go to Stratford. Ridiculously so. Mom said we’ll probably go the end of next month before school starts. that’d be cool.
I’m gonna go read now since I’m “not supposed to be on the computer” cuz I was on til 430 last night. whatever.
| — | Peggy Pennock |
| — | Jenna from Waitress |
so, I’ve decided that in this life, the only thing a person needs to truly be happy is someone to hold them.
I don’t even necessarily mean one particular person to hold them, it could be dozens. Hundreds even, if you are one to encounter that many people and to have them care enough for you to hold you. I just… miss human contact. Hugs and kisses are nice… but i miss being held.
I miss laying on the couch with my head in mom’s lap for hours at a time. I miss cuddling with Kein and just talking about nothing and everything and playing 20Q. I miss being enclosed in my Dad’s arms because I needed it. I miss crying and holding onto my uncle lon’s shirt so tight, I left an imprint of my fist in the cloth. I miss snuggling under the blankets with Lea as we watch Audrey Hepburn movies. I miss laying my head on Alex’s shoulder as we talked about life. I miss laying in bed with Katie for hours on end, talking and watching movies and being stupid. I miss falling asleep on Kein just because I know he lets me because I’m me. I miss holding hands with everyone, if even only to cross the street.
I hate feeling isolated. I hate shoving my hands in my pockets when I walk with my friends so I don’t reach out and touch our palms together in affection. I hate smiling and laughing with someone, but not feeling comfort enough to hug them for more than a split second. I hate wanting to hold my temple to the curve of a friend’s shoulder and not knowing them well enough to know if they would let me.
I like contact. I’m not a touchy feely person. I don’t do Public Displays of Affection. I hate kissing people with more passion than a sibling would allow, whether I’m dating them or not. I don’t like kissing lips. I love corners of lips, and cheeks so people don’t get the wrong impression. Foreheads are wonderful and noses, even better. But I just don’t kiss lips, unless they belong to a family member. I was raised to make contact, though. I need another person’s touch to get through the day.
I don’t like hanging on people. I despise kissing, as I have already mentioned. I just like contact. I like being held. I like having others want to be that close to me without thinking about sex. I like when affection is shown with bodies instead of words. “I love you” “You’re my best friend” “You’re amazing” they’re only words. But a demure smile, a lacing of fingers, a forehead to a shoulder, legs brushing together beneath schoolroom desks; these say so much more.
I miss being held. I miss human contact. I miss people and having them close to me. But I can’t fix that if no one is around to be close to.
And it’s the summer. No one wants to cuddle and snuggle under blankets and lay together. It’s too hot. It’s too much contact. It’s just too much. And I don’t feel comfortable asking that of someone that is only a friend and not more. I just.. miss it.
I miss being held. I miss someone wanting to hold me.
